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- Written by: Don Goulding
I have a photograph of two Chinese girls who are part of the underground church. Their hair is in pigtails and their dimples are beaming. As I colored pictures with them, they taught me about attention to joy and ignorance of oppression.
Six Nigerian boys have their shirts off and they’re drenched, with white toothed grins on every face. They were playing soccer in a torrential storm and stopped long enough for me to snap their photo. They showed me how to turn an inconvenience into fun.
Then there’s my video of our missions team romping with Indian orphans. There are toddlers riding piggyback on adults, and others squealing in a game of tag. These kids were oblivious that they received a fraction of the affection of other children.
No teacher is more eloquent than the children of the world, who demonstrate living without guile. I wish I could get their lesson right. Instead, I’m perpetually fixing problems, so I can one day enjoy life. I spend years contriving a path toward happiness, and forego hours of childlike joy. When did I outgrow the wisdom of a child?
I need the kids to reteach me. When I watch a grade schooler play hopscotch, I assume she doesn’t have the maturity to worry about global warming. Instead, I need to realize what she doesn’t have is the cursed pride to pretend mankind has the answers for a dying planet. I need less of my problem-solving mania, and more of her patient humility.
Prayer: Mighty God, with childlike trust, I cast my cares into your mighty hand.
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For what does it benefit a person if he gains the whole world but forfeits his life? Or what can a person give in exchange for his life? (Matthew 16:26)
I played Monopoly with two missionary children in Esztergom, Hungary. Nine-year-old Mario rubbed his hands, then traded properties and money for railroads and hotels.
Several turns later, Mario landed on another player’s square and couldn’t pay the rent. He bowed in silent protest as tears ran down his cheeks.
“I don’t want to mortgage my properties.”
We waited, but Mario refused to budge. His sister, the game banker, picked up his hotels and reconciled his accounts.
I wanted to say, “Those aren’t real hotels or houses, and this is fake money. How can you get so upset over a game?”
My words would’ve been self-incriminating.
Earthly life is not for keeps. My properties and even my family are temporary pieces moving around a game board. Compared to the things of heaven, they are miniature red hotels and plastic green houses. Yet, when I’m faced with a loss, I act like a cry baby. I don’t want to talk to God. I only want what I want. He is forced to take out of my hands what I will not yield.
It’s time to grow up. My existence in Christ operates quite beyond the temporal board on which I’m standing. My health, fortunes, and relationships may all crumble, but as long as I have Jesus, I possess everything. Loss can only hurt me if I let it shake my hold on him. So let the pieces fall where they may, I’ll not cry over a game.
Prayer: Jesus, expose anything I hold more tightly than I hold you.
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I have a pet sin, a private little darkness that I love, and hate. It disgusts my Inmost Me and so he forms a coalition with my Intellect. Together, they strategize how the sin must go. They persuade my Body into kneeling and prostrating itself. There is repentance, sorrow, and even moist eyes.
Inmost Me and Intellect bring God close and rejoice over his healing. They sign covenants and make speeches about how I can help others out of the same problem. They’re at peace, and even my fickle body joins their sacred repose.
My Old Nature watches Inmost Me and Intellect from the corner. He’s not welcome in their deliberations, so he lets them talk about him as they post lists of what will not be tolerated in the house. They may want to please God, but he has no such desire.
Old Nature lets his enemies finish their self-congratulatory ceremonies and drift into a confident sleep. Then he slithers out to the garbage heap, and brings the abandoned sin back into the house.
Inmost Me and Intellect awaken, stunned that all their work has been so easily undone. They rouse Body to ask what happened, but he only shrugs and points at Old Nature.
And so the house war is on again. There are big plans afoot. There must be deeper repentance and better accountability. Old Nature is bound and gagged. Tighter rules are posted.
As he sulks in his corner again, Old Nature’s gaze is on his favorite sin, out in the garbage heap. And he nibbles at the ropes.
There’s only one hope for a person like me—that Jesus would see my struggle and, at the end of my days, he would honor my Inmost Me and Intellect for never giving up, and that he would, at last, destroy my Old Nature.
Prayer: Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord, my only hope.